Feelings...

I am afraid of the vibes
Of the unspoken words that scare
Of the light touch that rattles my nerve
With certainty, I know its there

I fear the yen that so persists
That I know is to be curbed
And yet it is unstoppable
Like an excruciating thirst

The crowd around, it does hurt
It kills the spark; dulls the flame
But once left to ourselves
It rises again, no one’s to blame

Be it on a journey
On a road with all its bends
Just sitting by the other’s side
Hoping this never ends

Be it on a lakeside
With no words, just silence
For being with each other
Is the one essence

Or be it at a movie
With all the lights gone dim
Rain clattering on the window
It’s just another whim...

It’s the little things that matter
For we want each other perfect
But we teach and learn, no matter how hard
For we know what we’re to get

I cannot say what it all is
Is it a sense of bonding?
Or love in its purest form
Or for each other, a longing?

The craving, it cannot be stifled
But my mind has all the keys
It tells me “You will never act
So fantasize as you please”

So once again I close my eyes
Tis a world devoid of pain
For now it’s only she and I
Oh my, I am in heaven again…

On your mark...Get set...Go !!

Formed and fashioned from above
A cherished gift was I
Mom and dad were full of love
For the apple of their eye

Be it ma with her nightly kiss
Or daddy making my meal
Time may destroy all but this
To now that warmth I feel

Then to me it was the time
To do what I felt right
Breaking rules was no crime
By day or by the night

One fine day, in love I fell
Let it decide my mood
Snapping out of it as well
When to me it did no good

At long last I found my star
That shone bright in the crowd
It was one that had no scar
With it, FOREVER screamed aloud

What magis was, it hit 'pon us
As we led her into this world
Love spread about in manners thus
As she grew, our joys untold..

Now as I age, I think and muse
Of that I've gained and not
Life sometimes it has been a ruse
A straight road or a knot

Finally, all's said and done
I am an ebbing tide
And the time for me has come
To walk to the other side!

Manifestations...

I grin along, giving a nod
When you and I, we strike a cord
But when you speak words I dissent
A cold shrug to you is my present

Regrets and sorrows well up my eyes
Ridding of them, I heave some sighs
But depths of passion resting within
Surge up bringing my wrath therein

On the porch, my eyes on none
Dreaming in space, all woes I shun
You speak to me of payments due
And here I sit, looking right through you

The sign of love that Cupid sends
To my face a blush it lends
It makes me blink, and stop to wonder
Is this my path, or just a blunder...

In moments of life, when all's a haze
I stutter and strive, I'm in a daze
And from the realms of my mind
Those awkward thoughts make my teeth grind

With a twinkle in my eyes I smile
As you trip over in the aisle
My expressions make me what I am
These are for real, and not a sham

Sifting through strands

I jog back down that winding lane
Peek into all those doors again
That let me in, and bear my name

And though I see it crystal clear
I may not live it while I'm here
To me now, tis a film so sheer

Be it made with petals of gold
Or with stormy winds so cold
Its for me to use as a mold

For all I know, it belongs to me
Or to you, or whoever it be
But it stays as is, for eternity

But life goes on and seasons change
While I'm caught amidst feelings strange
Keeping smiles and tears alike in range

8 minutes of Birdhood

Up we went in a frail li'l craft
That took its time to get us aloft
Into bright blue skies on a beautiful day
We soared as we kept our fears at bay

The moment of truth had indeed arrived
As I stood on the edge, ready to glide
I barely counted to two point five
And before I knew, I'd taken the dive

I was but a rock in a mighty fall
Off a building standing three miles tall
And rare as moments could ever get
No thoughts thru' my mind did I once let

I screamed aloud with all my heart
Darting below ripping clouds apart
Was this as it really seemed
Or that I had only dreamed?

My ears went quiet, that's when I knew
No dream this was, but just so true
And I flailed my limbs like a crazy fool
Smiling at the lens, to look my cool

And suddenly, the skies they shook
As the chute broke open from its hook
That marked the time I was born again
As a bird that knew to fly by then

Pulling the chords, like I had the flair
In control I was, doing what I could dare
An air of peace before me loomed
As I glided above, while all earth zoomed

Acres of pastures stretched below
While I floated to ground, smooth and slow
A thrill this was like never before
And I wished so hard to fly once more

With a perfect landing to the ground
Gloating as I saw friends around
This was the best deal I could hack
One round trip to heaven and back!

Relationship - not just another nametag

The purity of lasting bonds never ceases to amaze
With abysmal depths of its own, leaving us in a daze
Intensity and power with which these branches are entwined
The choice lies in your hands, for you we are lined
I know not yet what to call it, there seems to be no name
For the richness that engulfs me so, I have no one to blame

The sound of togetherness echoes in the vale
Answers to these calls come with ease, for no more am I pale
This aura thus surrounding me, with sanctity infused
I hope to cherish all of it, and never be refused
My mind is all drenched and absorbed so deeply in your thoughts
And I have a pulse racing so hard, but only for the sorts

The tune of hearts beating along, sounds like a symphony
Yet at times there are unknown cues of melancholy
Bursts of passion promise to me, to last till eternity
It makes me think I am cared for, its not about pity
All I need is the feeling that, there's someone by my side
It be a face that I turn to, the place where I can hide

Those that envy mumble to me, my deeds will make me rue
But is there any other way, for I can't help but think of you
Some see this as a sacrifice, but with it I hope to learn
Going beyond love and desire, my heart has much to earn
It may be just another gamble, but I have to wager on
For there is much to win in this, but without it I lose all.

Does it really matter ???

A leader aims at peace around
Sniffing for success like a hound
Brave soldiers guarding us from foes
Keeping nations from but more woes
But... does it really matter ?

All we care for is how much we win
For which we may commit a sin
The lifelong strife for more and more
Until we tire and our minds get sore
But... does it really matter ?

This gap that keeps us apart,
Miles test the unity of hearts
Temptations walk by me each day,
And pour their doubts on me that stay
But... does it really matter ?

We may drink, forget, then be glad,
And people dare say we are mad
For those that matter, they know us well
The rest for whom we're in a shell
But... does it really matter ?

We detest so that the faith is gone
And love like its a whole new dawn
It takes more than just will to give
Or power to rule, or breaths to live
But... does it really matter ?

A thinker may think of it all
Oracles tell when this world's to fall
Great poets have had much to say
Speak of all things at will they may
But... does it really matter ?

To some, God is a mystery
The master of all mastery
Devotees worship him galore
Atheists believe he's but a lore
But... does it really matter ?

Standing By The Window...

Standing by the window
Watching the children play
I wonder what becomes of us
Whats really ours to say

Standing by the window
I ponder over the past
And wish from all the depths within
That it would forever last

Standing by the window
I paint a picture bright
With all the colors life can offer
Be they dark, or be they light

Standing by the window
I enjoy this gentle air
And urge my self to open up
Outside of my own lair

Standing by the window
Rain splashing on the pane
With gusts that make way through the gaps
Thrashing all that we think sane

Standing by the window
Green grass before my eyes
With gentle blades that bow to me
Catching me by surprise

Standing by the window
Trees swaying in the breeze
Their leaves gleam in all freshness
Can this moment not just freeze??

Standing by the window
Cars speeding, zooming past
I think how far I have travelled
In this world that's paced so fast

Standing by the window
Night lit by a full moon
A quiet moment with my spirit, then
Letting crickets sing their tune!

It Makes Me Wonder...

Closing my eyes I pray so hard
Afore all friends, to pull the right card
They think I am being so slick
Its nothing but a plain old trick

Cocooned is it in an early phase
Voracious in its younger days
And yet when it emerges out
Vividity is the butterfly's clout

This rivulet flowing all year long
In spring it sweetly sings its song
The summers fail to run it dry
When the world's gone cold, it does not shy...

The mystic chords that sing a tune
Your voice as calm as the moon
In glimmering fragments with the song
And joined together and spun along

When sleep opts to stay away from me
I lie in bed, with shut eyes I see
The spirits of gloom dance before my eyes
And slumber sets in amidst my sighs

Oh fervid longings, thoughts and fancies
How few of all your spirit-lances
They tread the city of the soul
And arrive where glory's trumpets roll!

A hand that rests above us all
That snaps a finger, and we rise or fall
All we do needs just a flick
I can't help but wonder what makes us tick

Its but an illusion of divinity
Minds fold into voids of inanity
The brainwashing 'white' idea of life
Unto our lives we invite much strife.

A Myth?

Thoughts of escape, fill up my mind
Like the roots below the big oak tree
But the rope's been cut, no more they bind
The coast is clear, now I am free

Is it coincidence...is it not?

Our fate is bound, luck's running out
I sense an oomph, of love at first glance
Careless whispers, there's but no doubt
This union, of hearts that prance

Is it coincidence...is it not?

This feeling here, I want it to last
The bud of love it blooms indeed
But time with you, fleeting so fast
Yet the truth remains, I am all you need

Is it coincidence...is it not?

I wished to have you by my side
Hike mountains high and swim oceans deep
And before I knew, I was on my ride
With moments of bliss, for me to keep

Is it coincidence...is it not?

I longed to have a chocolate pie
But my lips were sealed lest the walls may hear
Tring tring, "Hullo" I say with a sigh
"Lets go," says he "have a tart my dear"

Is it coincidence...is it not?

Some may call it 'Happenstance'
Others 'Random Chance', or 'Fortuitousness'
It stuns me, robs me of my sense
And makes me think, more often no less

Is it coincidence... oh I think not!

Symphony of Colors

The misty dawn, the lilac sky
To whom Weary spirits look up high
Early morn, its a brand new day,
The emerging light brightens our way

The morning air, so fresh and clear
And pastel shades would soon appear
In a sky alit with orange and red
As the lazy sun crawled out of bed.

This blazing star narrows its sight
And scorches me with noon's white light
I plead to him, Do please spare me
I owe my life, only unto thee

Lunch for me, it had better be soon
Famished am I, for its afternoon
Half day through, I yearn for siesta
A few hours more, and its time for fiesta

Shadows grow long, as the sun goes down
With hues of amber, it paints all town
The day's not done, there is more to come
Though sorry for few, and happy for some

Twilight sets in, greeting a bright new day
Together we cling, together we'll stay
Forever and ever till journeys end
Ne'er parting ways, as lover or friend

A navy blanket adorned with stars
Keeping me from life's harshest scars
A moon so round, smiling o'er the lake
On the morrow it has, sleepy sun to wake

More than just a dream...

It is a halo...

With not a whisper lost in the wind
Or a shadow bidding goodbye
Like the glowing aura of sunlight
Greeting a dreamy eye


It is a star...

Gazing at me with floods of light
That has to it no par
I wish 'pon it that we be
As one, though near or far


It is a sculpture...

Nesting itself within my soul
My life its ivory
I pose before my mind that sculpts
Figurines for me to see


It is a cloud...

Soft as if made of feathers
To cushion my weary head
With a smile dancing o'er my lips
I rise with no tear shed


It is a monk...

Seated in silence on my palm
Me under his scrutiny
He guides me through paths unknown
That'll make my destiny


It is an ocean...

With waves of chance and depths of hope
She lures me to her side
Lashes at me, and yet she seems
Tranquil at either tide


It is a bud...

Nourished with this yen for life
And a face without a scar
It blossoms when I want it to
Into the prettiest flower


It is an angel...

That like a moon on mid-summer's night
Is a bride hid in a veil
Who reigns the heart as emperor
And tells to me a tale

The Rules of Freedom

Have not a mind that closes itself
To the confines of its walls
Be not a soul that wishes to drown
In the shallow waterfall

Break from the clutches of time and reason
Look yon beyond the seas
Swim with the gulls, fly with the fish
Bring to your brow no crease

How tasteful is the sweet winning
Of love's first ever kiss
Cage not these wings for so they moult
But when unbound there's bliss.

Do love the free in thee, my love,
Enchanted through and through
The light you have to move towards
I drift with thee unto.

Sing out the words you meant to say
Live in the hour that's yours
Smile at the tunes that soar to heights
Into the skies azure

Forever there is another sky,
So tranquil and so fair,
Flooded with aeonian sunshine
In which ye ought to dare

Rescue the heart from depths of fear
And eerie nights that loom
Relentlessly combat the storm
For then the buds will bloom.

Shades of Love... Forces & Elements

Love is a word so often used
And trust, a feeling one can't let loose
But when together they waltz around
And swoosh by me without a sound

Oh let it be... please let it be

A flame of passion within me burns
It makes me take a thousand turns
Yet when faced with times so cold
It is but all I have to hold

Oh let it be... please let it be

This manic fear of losing you
A sea of dread it puts me through
But I take this beast by its horns
And wear with grace a diadem of thorns

Oh let it be... please let it be

Addiction to you, be it sane or not
Farther from you, obsession I sought
And longed for you to kill this pain
Elixir o' mine, I live again

Oh let it be... please let it be

Uncertainties, they irk and ire
But stem from them hope and desire
So words and thought I ne'er curtail
For it is these that fill my pail

Oh let it be... please let it be

These powers within, they seldom fade
Bolstering me in life's crusade
So may you take me as I am
Lest I shut like a clam

Oh let me be...please let me be

From Dusk to Dawn

Pick from trees of years bygone
Fibrils of memories to don
Weave from it a rug of joy
And roam around the world..ahoy!

Amass your senses, move along
Follow the light and sing a song
Goodbye you bid to those that were
And kiss hullo on cheeks that are

You are your own true monarch
So dwell you not in shadows dark
Head yonder out to pastures green
Nurture your pride and reign supreme...

Myriad Melded Musings!

A cup of tea can do so much With dancing swirls of haze It brings us closer, helps us cheer And introspect and gaze... We have our wishes one so many Some live on, others fray Yet all that matters most to us We seldom ever say The eyes speak what the lips can't say And sometimes even more They travel oceans' depths for you While keeping you on shore.. We call ourselves brave warriors And dreamers of all dreams Daring to think what others don't By solitary streams; You are my best and truest friend, So close as you can be, On whom I can forever depend Cuz you're so much so like me. Pray read to me a verse or two Simple and yet heartfelt That soothes this restlessness within And makes anxiety melt Regimental pelicans in flight Wipe clouds and leave no trace Whats left behind is a night so bright Spilling moonlight on her face I wonder why the night sky holds To us a lasting charm It twinkles and smiles back at us And then gives way to morn In vain attempts to break all chains Just so one can be free One binds the mind with cords so harsh And fails to let it be

We cherish moments of reason And those sans sanity; Tis fragments such as these of which Dreams all humanity Oft silence has the loudest noise And actions mean the least The deeds, they fade into the night Quiet lingers in the mist Despite the constant race with time With life and death akin We hope to soar up to our best Like kites against the wind We venture into galaxies And hoist flags to our pride Yet the bravest place for one to stand Is by the other's side I may not build you mountains high Or catch a rainbow fair, But let me be what means so much, A friend that spares no care The sun with all its orange glow Is a gift for one to prize It makes one see so vividly In the shadows of the eyes As night falls and darkness looms I close my eyes and pray That you will still be by my side At the dewy break of day. Truth with all its strength and grace Has spiteful clarity But its one's own perception that makes His life's reality Quit looking all around yourselves In search of paradise And take a peek inside your heart For that's where Eden lies

Lines of FRIENDSHIP

What warms the soul, what cheers the heart,
Is FRIENDSHIP'S renovating tie;
Yes this can social joy impart,
And wipe the tear from sorrow's eye.

FRIENSHIP'S is what we all admire;
Yet often nothing but a name;
Will kindle, burn and soon expire,
Just like a meteor's empty flame.

Where real FRIENSHIP is possessed,
It's a blessing to mankind,
It soothes affliction's troubled heart,
And elevates the sinking mind.

Thus private friends who dwell in love,
Are taught to feel another's woe,
To raise their thoughts on things above,
And live in FRIENDSHIP here below.

Drifting ahead...

A few months ago, by chance we met
And since then, has my mind been set
If there ever has been a heart so pure
It has to be you, my friend, I'm sure

You see in me, that which is me
You see my flaws...oh so it be
You accept me for who I am
You urge me into what I can

When I am happy, you are part of it
And sing along, as together we sit
When I am lost, you show me my way
And soon enough, are my cares at bay

I speak to you, of joys and worries
Moments from which my heart scurries
You listen to me, eye, nose and ear
That which none else can hear

With you I'm at home, I'm at peace
Trust in you, it comes with ease
In you I see a pal, a friend
For you I wish the paths ne'er bend

Your faith in me is like the ocean
Oh so deep…beyond imagination
You let me be oh so free
Like the waves, out in the sea

You chose me, among the so-many
As the one privileged of your company
Thus, hand in hand we walk
And dance a step, and talk the talk

As inseparable as we are
Be us near or be us far...

To you, For being YOU

I think that I have found
Upon this wondrous ground
A friend for life, a love
Who is a touch above

Life's mediocrities
That blow in different seas
These special ones on earth
Who've been that way since birth

They touch lightly your heart
And never must you part,
For when you see their eyes
There can be no good-byes

So walk this way with me
Along this pathway free,
I shall not bind or tie
Our love or it would die

Just for you...

People come and people go,

In and out of your life and so,

When one shines bright among the rest,

And is there when needed, you're truly blessed.

That is how I see you, friend of mine,

And why I'm sending this Valentine.

I look at the mirror, and this is what I see

It sure is difficult to begin writing about myself, as I have never done this before.
But then, I suppose one ought to know something about every blogger.

Since I am not quite sure about what you are expecting out of this, I will put it my way...

To start off with, I, like most others, believe a lot on my instincts. In fact, I have gone a little further, up to the point of beginning to trust my instinct.. now thats not as easy as it appears to be.

In my world, people are all that matter. To describe myself, I would - almost always - have to describe myself in conjunct with another. My behaviour varies from person to person. And each human is invariably categorized by me as one of:
- An acquaintance
- An inspiration
- A dream
- A potential friend (who eventually does become one)
OR
- A nemesis (a very strong word, I know. But, weeell..how do I put it..a negative factor in my life. Yea..that sounds more like it !)

Acquaintances . So many!! What more can I say ? You meet some, and whether you remember them or not, there you are! You still have 1 more person added to your so-called account.

Inspirations.. Oh yea.. there are those whom I so much admire - for reasons of my own, of course!

My dream... well, there is upto now, only 1 person that fits in here...
She also happens to be a friend but definitely NOT my inspiration...there are many things about her that I dislike. Yet, she has that something which I would love to have more of, and more importantly, she can flaunt it so very well. Now what is this, you may ask. Freedom. I yearn for it.. I thrive on it.. Speaking of which, I have all the freedom in the world. The problem is, I just don't know how to excercise this freedom ! And I believe, the only person I can learn this from, is my Dream.

Confused? Frankly, that was the idea !

My friends... few, but solid. They are just another me! But believe me, each of my friends is so very different from the other and also from me. Yet, we bond. These are those persons to whom I do not have to explain anything - no excuses needed, no apologies, bla bla bla... I simply can be "at home" with them. When it comes to me with these persons, life is very simple. Everything is as it appears. I am so glad about that. I can begin where I want and stop when I feel like. They accept me as I am and vice-versa. Well, how do I make such friends? Mostly by instinct (which is kinda at first sight), or due to constant interaction, which eventually leads to something very pukka, so to speak. I can be snobbish with them if I feel like, I can play all the pranks I like (which I can play on ONLY them), I can be the kindest, I can throw tantrums(which I do take pleasure in), I can be my best, I can even lie (soon enough I would blurt out the truth, of course), I can even be a no-good-listener...but somehow, it does not really matter.

During every phase of my relation with any person I have come across, I have observed that apart from instinct, what drives me towards any decent and healthy relationship, is my freedom with the person. It is how free I am with her/him..

And yea, I have my own sweet ambitions...everyone does ! No big deal !

By now, you probably would be wondering (that is if you were paying any attention at all), whatever happened to my Nemesis? So, to answer you, I say, I choose NOT to discuss that..

Coming back to me (again), I am a romantic at heart. I like imagining and visualising (not always the best of things to do, you know). But when it comes to imagining the tangible (doesn't that qualify to be a paradox ?), there goes my imagination for a toss !! Ironically, logic appeals to me. I believe that the world cannot survive without a little bit of logical imagination (but I wouldn't say vice-versa here... imaginary logic ....SCARY )
Talking of logic reminds me of math. I just LOVE math !!!! Well, not exactly the theorems and stuff, just plain simple arithmetic and algebra fascinate me !
Sudoku and puzzles too are my idea of entertainment.

Whooaa !! Till now I have only been ranting about some philosophy AND about the stuff I like.

But guess what !! There are tons of things I dislike ...
Starting with BRINJAL (or eggplant for those who wish to grasp the English in the US).... cannot tolerate the mere presence of this vegetable !!
Next, it would be bossy people. Hey, what the heck, get off my face ! Many of my dislikes circle around such "bossy people".Oh, by the way, I would like to add hypocricy to my hate-list too, but I can be the biggest hypocrite myself !! So, you cannot really trust me on that one...

Oh boy...am I tired or what !!
I guess I can continue..but then, aren't you bored by now ?

The Beginning...

I look around, I see faces everywhere
Some smiling, some with tears
Some shy, some in awe
Some free, some with cares
Some thinking, and some that stare

I ask myself... "What do the faces hide ?"
A longing to be seen
A desire to be felt
A thrill for the unknown
A heart ready to melt

And then I see her, drifting above all...
Like a god that gives
And knows nothing else
She is waiting for me
Her arms outstretched

The beginning ends... I found my friend
We talk and talk
It feels so good
She knows me
Like I know myself

The puzzle must be solved, the end must begin..
With a dream in my eyes
And hope in my heart
I set out again
This time, in search of me...